randomscribbles

what do you do when you're faced with a temptation so absolute and so real that you no longer have the strength, or even desire, to fight it? you tell yourself to just go with the flow, day in and day out. but you're really just running around in circles, trying to runaway with no avail. going deeper into the abyss of confusion and guilt. all you believe in suddenly feels like a lot of empty spiritual bullshit that's good only when unchallenged by reality. how long can you refute it? pretend that it's not really happening? that truth is somewhere else? how long before it finally brings you crumbling down? can you even bring yourself to look into the mirror and see this stranger looking back at you then? you just start making excuses after excuses... becoming more and more numb. until one day you eventually reach the end of the abyss and wonder what the big fuss was all about. one thing you should remember then. curiosity (triggered by boredom) always kills the cat.