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December 07, 2005

please excuse the mess...

i'm upgrading to movabletype 3.2, thus the current awful mess of this weblog. hopefully, everything would be back to its normal functioning state by early next week *crossing fingers*

from dailies | 09:48 AM | comments (1)

November 24, 2005

not-so-distant past

it's weird to be in warm weather in november and not seeing the usual christmas shopping rush or hearing the bells of the street santas.

it's thanksgiving day now in boston, and people are worrying whether their turkeys will come out just perfect from the oven, or for those who won't bother the hassle, are already enoying their turkey dinners at fancy restaurants, or having peking duck dinners in chinatown. while the rest are enjoying their long weekend by taking trips or staying at home catching up with sleep.

from thoughts | 02:28 AM | comments (4)

November 23, 2005

belia

the long-overdue redesign of this fun, girly website was first launched in early august by a team of highly dedicated people (motivated, enforced and slightly enslaved by yours truly :P) and now has a new front page! even if you're not a teenage girl, i hope you'll at least enjoy your visit at belia.com :)

from links | 12:02 AM | comments (0)

September 13, 2005

sun in gemini

i'm so incredibly bored and not in the mood to work today. not sure why...
anyway, i found this astrological quiz while browsing aimlessly on the web, and here's what it says about me:

"When Desiree was born, the Sun was in the sign Gemini, the Observer. Desiree may never lose her capacity to be amazed by life on this mysterious spinning ball that we inhabit. She brings a fresh eye and a marvelous open-mindedness to relating, and prefers curious, questioning, lively and communicative partners. There's a great Geminian need for new and fascinating experiences. As the novelist Shirley Jackson once said when advising aspiring writers how to engage their readers, "Give them something to wonder about."

from quizzes | 03:54 AM | comments (2)

July 28, 2005

these days

ok, enough with the depressing entries. i was reading through my blog yesterday, and goodness gracious, there hasn't been any happy ones for months. well, it hasn't really been all bad. i did have fun once in a while: ever since i've been back in indonesia, i've been to bali a couple times, watched mtv vjhunt, joe millionaire, miss asean and indonesian idol live (with vip invitations! :P heheh... one of the perks with working for this company, is that you get a lot of these invitations to such events), met old friends and gone to nice lounges (some with really great live jazz performances and tasty martinis), and of course, had lots and lots of great indonesian food, the one thing i sorely missed while in the u.s! :D

oh, and i finally got my own dialup connection at work. this greatly improves both my work life (as i no longer have to wait as long for any web page to upload on my screen — network connection at work really sucks) and my social life (as now i can catch up at last with friends i hadn't talked to for months on ym).

at work, things are really hectic these past few weeks, which is good cuz i'm usually happier when i'm busy and productive. i also bought the sixth book of harry potter: the half-blood prince on july 16th, right when it came out. i read it through in about 4 days, after which i got kinda sad cuz that meant i got more waiting to do for the seventh book. but rumor has it that the next book will come out at the end of the year... hmm, wonder if it's true?

from dailies | 10:41 PM | comments (7)

July 24, 2005

the problem of forgiving

it was the night when the medication was taken off from my father. i didn't feel like doing anything or going anywhere. the heavy air seemed to press me through the ground, i could barely breathe. i thought it would be best to be left alone. i wouldn't be able to keep anyone company at the moment.

yet, at the same time i desperately needed someone i could be myself with. someone with whom i didn't have to pretend that i was doing just fine. i wanted more than anything to let it out. this thing that's been gnawing at me for the past three weeks. i was exhausted. i didn't have the strength to pretend anymore. i wanted to be allowed to be weak, to be allowed to cry, to be held and to be told that everything would be ok. that this would all pass. that i would be able to manage somehow.

just a few days before, he told me, "i will be there for you. i will help you get through this."